Monday, April 28, 2008
-I've Got To Stay Away-
Am constantly reminding myself to do just that but it's easier said than done.
And i know you too well to know what you are thinking.
I am trying so hard but you have no idea how all of this is tormenting me my dear.
The sleepless nights, the loss of appetite. [Although i greatly welcome the loss of appetite because it helps me lose weight.]
And you said, "You think she can get over it so fast meh?"
Have you thought that perhaps its doing the same thing to me too? And you, being you, only think for the one that you have your eyes on now.
After so long, and you expect it to be over just by the snap of your fingers. HAHA! Yah. If only it was that easy.
Friday, April 25, 2008
-Random thoughts-
Pretty girls or handsome guys are a flirtatious lot. They lead you by the nose and when they decide they have had enough fun with you, they throw you aside and move on to the next one. And they do not have to be afraid that there isn't a next one to move on to because there is always a line forming behind them.
Puh-lease. Just pluck up your courage and go confess already.
Faint heart never won fair lady.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
-Today is hate day!-
So i changed my mind about working at the first telemarketing company. I'm not superwoman afterall. So i'm left with the night telemarketing which would earn me a pittance sum of $400++ a month. Plus the M1 roadshows of $280 per month. That means only $600+ a month! Ahh! Damn little lah!
Anyway, being a telemarketer makes you like the number one enemy of everybody you call. Typical answers ranges from "I'm not free" to "I'm not interested". The most fantastic answer i came across was this:
Me: Hello, may i speak to Mr. xxx?
Mr. xxx: Yes, speaking. May i know who is on the line?
Me: I'm L calling from yyy on behalf of xxx company. May i know if its convenient to apeak with you now?
Mr. xxx: Hello? Hello? Hello...*dial tone*
The most stupid thing was, i even answered to his hellos. Like i sincerely believed that he couldn't hear me. And it was only when the dial tone replaced the hellos did i realise that he was bluffing with the hellos.
And of course i did not introduce myself as L lah. It was just that the company required us to use a christian name and i had to think of one on the spot so i ended up with a name that's, how should i put it? Erm...interesting. To know what it is, you have to bribe me with chocolates. GF, you owe me one box. Don't forget!
And since i have to walk this whole stretch to the station, i was able to admire the skyscrapers at night. I have to say they are beautiful. And the tranquility of the CBD area at night as compared to the hustle and bustle of the office hours is such a different experience.
Oh. I have to explain why today is hate day. Too tired to do it now so i shall save it for next time.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
-Huge Mistake!-
Made a huge mistake this time round. I should not have accepted both the telemarketing jobs. Now i have three jobs and come monday, i would be working for 13 hours, 5 days a week! Rest day would be on Saturday and then the M1 roadshows on Sunday. Damn, damn stupid of me lah.
Crap. And to think i worked for only 8 hours today and i'm already so tired. The job is so totally not me. I need a sales or F&B job so i can interact with customers. How would i last for the rest of the days?
And i so want to cry. But to cry now will make me look like so much of a wuss. Argh! Damn shitty.
*Edit*
Don't know why i wrote the sentence i deleted when i know the person will not read it. Don't want it to remain there to remind me of something that will not happen and in the process making me feel so...Urgh!
Maybe its because i know that the person will not read it that's why i wrote it. Okay, i'm confusing myself now. Anyway it has been deleted. So just leave it as that.
Good friend! You better meet me after your work to lend me your shoulder to sleep on on my way back from work. You promised me the shoulder.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
-Happy Birthday to Me!-
So the day came and went.
Had a pleasant surprise from hakim and cindy-dave when they appeared at my house at midnight with a cake from McCafe. I have superb friends! Had a sinful supper of cakes at the pavillion downstairs and crapped like we always do when we meet up. Laughing at the bihimbotic cindy-dave who pronounced Yale University as Ya Le University among other bihimbotic stuff.
Before that had a mini celebration with Cedrick, Ervin and Jackson at Minds' Cafe. The fantastic strawberry shortcake from Rive Ganauche and the super filling Japanese dinner at Nihon Mura after that. Thanks guys.
On the actual day, had dinner with the two good friends and gossiped a whole lot.
On this day, i came to realise that one does not need many friends in one's life to be happy. A small group of true and thoughtful friends will make your day anytime. Thanks to cindy-dave, hakim, helang, xiuli, alister, weiping, ervin, adrian, cedrick, jackson and shirley for the birthday wishes. You guys made my day! :)
Sunday, April 13, 2008
-Swearing-
Swearing makes girls, and guys alike, all seem so uncouth. Hearing all the effs and dialect swear words coming out of their mouth totally spoils their image. Can you imagine seeing a pretty girl/handsome guy, dressed to the nines, walking towards you. Then when she/he starts talking, she/he peppers her/his sentences with effs and other sorts of swear words. MAJOR turnoff!
Unless, of course, you are an ah beng and hearing those things are the norm to you and it actually appeals to you. I remember i once read a report on girls swearing and it being acceptable. It was stated in the article that in this men dominated world, for the women to be accepted into their social circle, swearing and accepting that guys swear, is a must. But that is so absurd.
If you take the literal sense of the F word and put it into the sentences which people use it in, it will make no sense at all. So what's the point of using it? Some may say that it's to express anger but i'm sure there are better, non vulguar, words to use to show that you are angry.
Okay, i shall stop acting all prim and proper.
The day is drawing near but instead of being all celebratory, i am dreading the arrival of the day.
Sigh. If only it happens. I would be contented to just faint and die on the spot.
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
-Expensive Wish-
Sony Cybershot T300's debut in Singapore! 10.1 megapixel, touchscreen, 3.5'' screen, face recognition, smile shutter etc. If only it would just drop right into my hands from the sky. Not to be picky but Red or Black would do just fine. :) The camera is so going into my wish list along with the Abercrombie & Fitch jacket below. Grey or White would be fine! :)
I realise that i have expensive taste. I don't usually spend a lot but when i do, i always get expensive, gadget-y stuff. Like how i blew my first paycheck two years ago on the overpriced Lumix which is such a lousy camera now. Followed by how i blew my next paycheck on the Zen Micro which was a good investment because it is still working perfectly fine now. And not forgetting the time when i lost my handphone and spent $460 to get a new, but exact same model just so my parents would not find out that i lost my handphone. Oh my! If i did not spend all the money, i would be $1000+ richer now. And i would be well on my way to achieving my dream of having $10,000 in my bank account by 20 which is so totally impossible now unless i strike lottery or something. I so need to invest my money in something that would reap huge returns!
Anyway, am still suffering from the bout of insomnia. No matter how i try to convince myself to sleep i just can't seem to get to sleep. And now the dreaded 'panda eyes' have appeared. It is freaking 240am and i am not asleep yet!
You asked me why i can't get to sleep and I said 'just because'. But the real reason is because when i lie on the bed with nothing to do, the tears just keep pouring out. That's why every night, i'm just too afraid to go to sleep. I so want to be over this phase so help me out.
You have no idea how all of this is tormenting me my dear.