Life as I know it

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

-Over-

It's all over. Finally i have finished my mid semester exam. Now its one month holiday! woohoo! But what am i supposed to do in this 1 month? I doubt i would be able to find a job that is for one month. I doubt my friends are free to go out in the one month. So what shall i do? Rot at home.

I thank you for the time you spent with me.
I thank you for trying to make me happy al the time.
I thank you for always being there for me.
The things you have done are really thoughtful.
It may not mean a lot to you but every single action of yours have moved me.
Thank you for everything. =)

Tuesday, September 27, 2005
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I'm back. Apparently, i have nothing to write about anymore. My attempt to study at the BizIt library today failed horribly. I did not even study a single page of my notes! My oh my! How am i going to pass the marketing exam? Shall really mug hard tomorrow. I am so freaking slack now. I just sat in front of the television once i came home no once reading through my notes. Now i'm sitting in front of the computer crapping away. Why? I need some motivation!

My posts are kind of getting worse as the day goes by. I can no longer produce substantial posts other than complaining about my sickening life. I sometimes admire my friends who come up with things to write about. Stuff that are philosophical. I used to be able to write a litle of these stuff but now its all gone. What's happening to me? The stories that i wrote, i no longaer have any inspiration for them. Is my life really becoming so monotonous that i no longer have things to write about? Argh! questions again. I should stop asking so many questions.

just to let you know. I'm happy that i found you. perhaps you may leave me one day in search of someone new but i will definitely treasure the moments we spent together.

Monday, September 26, 2005

-Finally-

I am currently stuck in the BizIt library of Singapore polytechnic. Why you may ask. Well, simply because a group of my friends decided that we would study for our upcoming marketing paper but all of us are knocked out tight now save for one person who is still studying. The reason for all of us being so tired? Well, today was our economics paper and most of us stayed up late last night to do some last minute revision. Now we are all like dead tired and in fact i have just woken up from a nap. Two more are sleeping and one studying.

The econs paper was quite easy as in i could answer most of the questions but as for whether i would get them correct is a different story. I am just relieved that it's over. Now i'm left with another paper before my semester break starts. Woohoo. Holidays are here again. It seemed like i just had my term break. Things to do during the sem break.

1. Try and get a job to earn more money!
2. Watch movies!
3. Sakae sushi buffet! Anyone wanna go?
4. Chalet!-again
5. Catch up with my dearest friends hakim and cindy and other ex css peeps.

Okay. The computer is trying to log me out now so i shall return later.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

-titleless-

I am too lazy to update my blog now adays. Besides, i'm having my exams now. It's a relief to have to only sit for 3 papers. Not like in secondary school where we have to sit for like 8 or 9 papers. That was stressful but its equally stressful now. I totally dislike economics because the concepts are just so difficult to grasp. I just hope that i would be bale to pass economics this semester and not forward the subject into the next year. If not i am so gonna die if i haft a repeat the subject again.

Thoughts have been bogging me down lately. things like what option will i choose next year and if i really like the option or not. Just went to look at the options available and i have to say tourism still appeals to me the most. Although the marketing option also seem fun. There are also other courses that i can transfer to like accountancy and banking and finance. Accountancy is quite okay but it seems a little bring to me. As for banking and finance, the finance part looks fun because of the futures trading pit and everything but like i have said, tourism still has the most appeal. Whatever it is, i just have to concentrate on my studies and get good grades so that i would be able to choose the option and not the other way round. What's more i have another semester to think about all these stuff so i shall just take my time.

Decisions to make. Would i regret them?

Sunday, September 11, 2005

-Drop of Tear-

A single drop of tear rolled down her cheek.
That was the very first time she ever cried for a guy.
Perhaps it was because she felt helpless.
Perhaps it was because she felt frustrated.
But whatever it was, it was the first tear she shed for a guy.
And she knew there would be more to come.

A single drop of tear rolled down her cheek...
Love hurts but nobody said it was easy.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

-boring day-

Due to my 'fantastic' memory, i have once again forgtten what i wanted to write in here. I think it was something about the talk that i went for today. It was boring and the group of us that went there almost fell asleep ut could not because we were sitting like three rows from the stage so we were in clear view of the speakers. And as you know, it's impolite to fall asleep when a speaker is speaking. so we tried all ways and means to keep ourselves awake. What's worse is the talk continues tomorrow. Another day of boredom.

What is love? Its just a simple four letter word that i believe most of us teenagers are not prepared for. Perhaps we are just a curious bunch of people wanting to experience something which we have not felt before. But how long do you think this kind of feeling will last? not that i do not believe in love between teenage couples but its just so rare to see them becoming something more than that. Its rare to see them stay together till forever. What's love? Does anybody even know the true meaning of this simple four letter word?

I'm afraid. i'm very afraid. I'm afraid of getting hurt. I'm afraid of letting myself be too close to you in case i get hurt.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

-Nothing to say-

I must say i am a pretty traditional girl. Well, maybe not so much. But there are just some things that i would definitely not say or do in front of a whole group of people. Just read a blog and well, i have nothing to say. I mean like why flaunt what you have in front of everyone? To make people jealous? There are some things that people do not need to know. Too much info babe. Keep it to yourself.

-Surprises-

I love surprises but sad to say i don't think i have ever received a surprise before. What i mean when i say surprises is those kind of nice surprises that you receive from your friends or loved ones. Not those kind that would scare you to death like receiving a box filled to the brim with cockroaches. Oh my goodness. That's totally disgusting. Why did i even think about that?

Anyway, back to the topic. I like receiving surprises because...well, i dont't really know why. I can't really say why because i have never received a surprise before. Maybe after i receive a surprise, i would freak out and develop a phobia for surprises. I am so full of crap.

I'm going to have a presentation later on and can you believe it? I am actually wearing a skirt! For those of you who know me, you would know that i swear off skirts. And i have not worn a skirt for almost a year now. The only skirt that i own at home is my Secondary School skirt and well, now i have this presentation skirt. I am so not used to wearing a skirt. It restricts your movements and all. Okay, nevermind. I shall stop grumbling about wearing a skirt since i may eventually have to wear skirts when i go out to the working world. I am so crapping now. Shall stop here.

Thursday, September 01, 2005

-teachers' day-

I actually skipped classes for the whole day yesterday to go back to my secondary school for their teachers' day celebration. Didn't really go back to look for teachers because quite a number of them left already. I went back there just to watch the performance and to catch up with my secondary school friends.

Had quite a nice time hanging out with my fellow ex-bandmates after the celebration. We went down to town and took some neoprints before heading to cafe cartel at plaza singapura for our dinner.

When we were about to go home we played on the travalator at the station. We went to and fro like about three times? Hakim did his model walk on the travalator and it was really stupid but we were playful. What to do? Haha.

Anyway, pictures taken are below.